Overwhelmed by a life!


I have the overwhelming privilege of gathering photos for my father in laws service. Jim Sr. is in the process of dying and very much like a birth; this is a time of reflection and anticipation.  I anxiously await his heaven birthday where he will no longer be in pain. My husband is working on the eulogy and is prayerfully considering what to say.


In his life, he has many roles:

A father

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A grandpa

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A lover of animals

jim and dog

Jim Sr. was a firefighter, bus driver- mechanic and a husband to name a few of his roles.  He is so many things but non greater than a child of God. His choice to follow Jesus has made all the difference in his life and the lives of those who love him.  We are anticipating an eternal life instead of dreading the loss of an earthly one.  Thank You, Jesus for your mercy on him and on those who love him.


Please join me in praying. 

       Lord Jesus, we plead the Blood over Jim Sr. that he be released from his earthly body and its death and instead be received into the Kingdom of God with joy.  Let Your peace reign as He transitions to life.  Cancer you cannot keep him bound to his body and pain any longer, be gone in Jesus name.  Christ receives him.  Thank You, Jesus.  By the gift of Your precious blood, let his family and friends and all those he touched rest in Your peace.  Amen.


Despair revoked, Hope revealed! Part two: Being Present


Being Present

The simple message I am about to relay from a dear new friend, a happen stance encounter left me breathless.  Both humbled and awed.  How could I take what she said, and make it into a reality in my life?  Was that possible.

I asked Zoe’s mother, Jen Stolz, what was the one thing that most helped her through the fatal diagnosis and later death of her child?  This was her response.  Choosing to be in the present.  Whatever that present was.  Enjoying every moment of her pregnancy and the few hours she had with Zoe.  She states, “Being present allowed me to experience all my emotions, the good and the hard and allowed me to feel God’s love and presence”.

I read these words and was stunned, they rocked me to my core and left me breathless. Did I ever do that, could I ever do that?  Did I know how to do that?  Maybe there’s a class I can take on that.  Literally all day long I stopped in mid-movement held by the thought of being present. I would go to pull the milk out and be hit in the Spirit.  These thwacks to the gut were simultaneously uplifting and convicting. Being present is a gift we can all receive. Some are better at possessing the gift than others.  I have little to no practice with it. I am always rightfully being told, to be still and sit quietly in anticipation.

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I read one of her husband’s blogs that describes their combined journey of learning the value of being present.  They knew they would never be able to teach Zoe to read, or to ride a bike.  So pregnant Jen took Zoe on a bike ride and read and sang to her.  Jen’s intentional actions of “being present” are quite inspiring.  It leaves me wondering how can I be more present?  Less consumed with what is coming next.  How can I stop playing the “what if” game, tormented with planning and attempting to control life instead of living it?  I declare, that I am going to intentionally live in the present, but I am going to need help.

Lord Jesus, You know how you created me.  I have a difficult time being still and living in the moment.  Lord Jesus I surrender my life to you.  Help me to live in the present and presence of You, in the moments of my everyday life.  Tenderly teach me what you would have me know.  I acknowledge that my children are a gift from you, help me to enjoy that gift. Thank you, Amen.

Please send in comments about how you live in the present, or how you are learning to do so.

Jen writes about the loss of her daughter and her journey in http://www.livinglifelovingit.com/anencephaly-infant-loss-sorrow/

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