My hands crash through my purse frantic to find the keys. Their cold metal would be a delight to my fingertips, my heart races certainly; these are it. I pull out a finger nail file.
Panic no longer in the backseat but in full control, accusations fly at my children, “Did you move them?
I always put them in my purse!
I’m going back through the parking lot and the store. Watch the girls, boys”
In a dead sprint, I look back in the drizzling rain to see the pathetic faces of my three, seven and twelve year old children, my hand slides down in defeat and makes contact with the keys attached to the ring of my purse strap.
( Kzinn- morgue file)
There are more times than I want to admit when I left the most important thing to chase after the lesser thing spurred on by panic.
In the above, scenario I left my precious children alone and vulnerable in the cold and dangerously dark parking lot in order to chase keys the thing I thought I really needed.
How many of us if we are honest have left the safety of operating in God’s will in order to chase something else that sounded good and seemed important?
Where was my trust in God that cold night?
It’s easy to look back and see where my trust was – in my own abilities to rescue us, the keys. I chose to look at the cold, dark world and see its power and not the Savior I serve.
Where in the bible does it say:
- Trust until it doesn’t make since
- Trust until you are in pain
- Trust until your children are hurting.
- Trust until your circumstances don’t match your dreams
- Trust until it gets really hard
- Trust until you did what other Christians told you to do and it still didn’t work
- Trust until you are disappointed
- Trust until you lose your business.
This is one of the promises of God.
O Lord of hosts, blessed (happy, fortunate, to be envied) is the man who trusts in You [leaning and believing on You, committing all and confidently looking to You, and that without fear or misgiving]! (AMPC)
I have been ruminating on this promise and concluded the simple and difficult fact is you are blessed when you get out of your own way. When you don’t choose to try to control life but instead give full trust where it is due, Christ Jesus.
I can attest to the truth of Proverbs 3: 5-6, whenever I chose my own wisdom life takes very drastic and unfortunate turns. When I rely on Him my path becomes steady and true. The word easy doesn’t come to mind when I think of the current path of my life but steady is accurate. God the great provider is faithful to continue to bring me forward.
Lean on, trust in, and be confident in the Lord with all your heart and mind and do not rely on your own insight or understanding.
In all your ways know, recognize, and acknowledge Him, and He will direct and make straight and plain your paths. (AMPC)
Prayer: Lord Jesus, help me to remember in the very moment of panic, anxiety and worry to trust in You. To stop and breathe and allow the living and powerful God within me to take control. Let my hands and feet and the speech from my mouth be an extension of Christ’s purposes. Help me to navigate this dark world and bring Your Light to the hurting. Let the pursuit of my heart always be You. Your kingdom on earth as it is in heaven. Let it be so in my life. That I fulfill Your will with immediate and full obedience. You are worthy of my trust and I proclaim my trust is in You- Christ Jesus. Thank You, Amen.