Mother Instinct- is it real?


The twist of an ankle sent me crashing forward in space.  Abigail my two year old barely awoke snuggled into my neck “safe” in my arms.

Protective reactions created within us by God dictate my arms would shoot out in front of me to protect my body.  Instead, I tucked Abby in deeper and my elbows came up.  Instantaneously my body moved not by my will or by my might but instantaneously. I roll to my back as I writhe in pain Abigail remained snuggled. She finally fully awoke when two of my other children ran up the stairs and began shouting, “Are you okay?”

God created all of us with protective reactions to shield our heads from trauma.  My reactions of protecting Abigail went against my original creation design.  After this experience, I realized God changed my original creation design from protecting me into protecting my children.  He created within me new mother protective reactions.

This thought blew up in my mind. If He can create the ability within me, to do what is best for my children, without thinking, and without effort, maybe I should ask Him to do this in other areas of my life.

  • Lord Jesus, come in to my mother’s decisions
  • Lord Jesus, come in to the discipline of my children
  • Lord Jesus, come in to my mothering conversations
  • Lord Jesus, come in to my marriage
  • Lord Jesus, come in to my workplace


There is no place that the Lord cannot transform- no place, except that which we hold back from Him because of our own misguided will. Release your will from the areas of your life God wants to touch.

Psalm 139:7-12 (NIV)

 Where can I go from your Spirit?     Where can I flee from your presence?  If I go up to the heavens, you are there;     if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.  If I rise on the wings of the dawn,     if I settle on the far side of the sea,  even there your hand will guide me,     your right hand will hold me fast.  If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me     and the light become night around me,”  even the darkness will not be dark to you;     the night will shine like the day,     for darkness is as light to you.


Prayer: Lord Jesus, I release my will from every area of my life that You want access to. Please, create a switch with in my mind that my very instincts, the reactive part of my being be transformed and conformed to the mind of Christ.  Align the very synapsis of my brain to the Word and Will of God so that I am unable to react in a way that deviates my actions from Christ.  Let it be.  Thank you, Jesus.  Amen


Join me in this leap of faith- believe that Christ can do what He says.

Stop hiding and begin enjoying your freedom, bought and paid for by Christ.

Have you ever had a supernatural mother experience? I would love to hear about it.


Mother’s heart



“Thwang.” A giant drum spins and drives its timber into my heart cavity releasing a devastating quake into my mother’s heart.  An agitated, twittering flutter emerges where once a strong steady beat resided. This unnatural vibration of the heart sets into motion frantic thoughts.

            A simple statement of fact regarding a lack of a skill in one of my sons left me deadened for hours.  Dread settles in. The “what ifs?”-emerge.  What if he never improves?  What will he look like as an adult?  All the while, the other side of my heart wants to fully experience the gift of motherhood without undue expectations and worry.  How do you reconcile these two distinctly different realities? How do you operate with a divided heart?

As I struggle to breathe, a prayer escapes me.  “Lord Jesus, I can’t bear this.  I don’t have a clue on what to do to relieve this pain and to make the correct choices not based on fear but on Truth.”

As I let go, I feel the crashing- thudding weapon formed against my mother’s heart begin to dismantle.  I understand that God loves my children more than I do.  That this skill was improving and that if I laid this problem in God’s hand the solution would continue to unfold.  The moment I grab it back, it arrests the work that God is doing.  In the past fear had frozen me, forcing me into a sick dance from in-action to frantic ineffective action.  I cannot find balance alone.  There is no balance in my own mind or heart.  Desperate I release to Jesus and start the road to healing.

(I encourage you to proclaim this prayer out- loud over your life)

Prayer: Great is the glory of the Lord and forever He does reign.  His sovereign hand is on my heart and in my children’s lives.  I cannot save my children or myself my help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth.  I proclaim and declare trust in the living God- Jesus Christ.  Have Your way in my life.  Restore my family to their original creation design.  Enlighten the eyes of my heart so that I might hear from You and that I might begin to grow in the knowledge of Your majesty and understand my own standing in Your kingdom.  Thank you, Jesus.  Amen

Ephesians 1:17-20 (NIV)

I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit [of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better. I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in his holy people,  and his incomparably great power for us who believe. That power is the same as the mighty strength he exerted when he raised Christ from the dead and seated him at his right hand in the heavenly realms,


Triumph of Faith?


To understand faith we must go beyond the first glance and begin to search the depths.

Faith is trust, hope and the understanding of Christ’s character outside of the concept of earthly time.  We can only trust if we understand the character of God.  We can only have hope if we allow God’s will and timing to exceed our own desires for immediate reward.  Faith by its very nature cannot be advanced without the expansion of time. There must be a laying down of human expectations in order to receive Christ’s supernatural miracles.

No God= No miracles. And yet in our haste and impatience we short circuit the miracles of God.

God promises much if we operate in faith.

Hebrews 11:6

And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him. (NIV)

To act in faith is to expectantly move and (BE) before the path is unveiled.  Being is harder than doing. It requires stillness, a self-cleaning setting to identify what is not of God and toss it out.  If it does not strengthen our faith eliminate it.

Eradicate thoughts, words, vocabulary of disbelief, and then actions fall into alignment with God’s word allowing faith to emerge. People often move in faith quite well.  To be in faith, now that is difficult. To be in faith is a greater thing.

Narrow is the gate, as we walk through it allow it to squeeze out any lack of faith. See, Matthew 7:13-14.

Faith is identified as one of the spiritual gifts therefore it can be given. Reference 1 Cor. 12:1-11 to review a great teaching on the spiritual gifts.  God is willing and able to give faith, if we have the courage to ask.

Do you have the courage to ask for faith?

If you are unwilling or lack the courage to ask for faith know this-

There are times we can move within works carrying out our Father’s will on earth as it is in heaven but only for a time, if we have not mastered the skill of being in faith.

I am not throwing out James’s statements without works our faith is dead.  I whole-heartedly agree.  But if our being is wrong and our understanding of God is wrong our works will be lifeless.  They will be puffed up and self-serving.  Without being in faith you cannot conform your will to Christ’s.

Someone once said the only thing we can give God on this side of heaven is Faith, In heaven there is no faith only sight. Seek out faith now, while you are still breathing, so that you might give your full obedience to Christ a living sacrifice.

(The following prayer is only for those who are ready to leave the old and walk into a new level of relationship with Christ- absolute trust)

Prayer:  Lord Jesus I surrender my being to you.  Fill me with an understanding of Your character.  Teach me of You so I might lose my selfish will in Your glory.  Lord Jesus, I give You permission to grow my faith and move within me at a level I have never experienced before.  Take Your servant and do as You want, in order for Your will to be done on earth as it is in heaven.  We praise You Jesus and in Your name we say, Amen- let it be.




“Who came up with this idea- Ugh?” I grunted as I smacked yet another mosquito lunching on my forearm.

My daughter’s attempts at smashing the already bent portion of one tent rod into the other one go on perpetually thwarted by the less than comical other side popping out the second she got the current one in.

At my wits end I call for a truce with the tent.  My grumbly group of four mosquito bitten children stand at the ready for their fearless leader’s next command.

“Okay guys this is it, if we can’t do it this round we wait for dad.  New plan Gabe you go to that end and hold it, Gavin this end Grace and I will hold one side and finish it completely before going to the next, and Abby you continue to scream as only a 2 year old can while jamming your finger up my nose and clinging to the only free arm I have left.”  “ I am about to do something drastic, I will read the tents instructions”.

We always had what we needed the right amount of hands and the right amount of desire to see the task through. We even had the folded un-opened instruction sheet.  We were in no way whatsoever communicating and moving as a unit.  We were all doing our best in the way that we thought was best- never consulting the tent manufacturer’s directions.

We have the instruction manual on how to do life.  We just need to open it up.  Is it time yet to call a truce on the battles in your life and ask the Creator for His plan?

Psalm 143:8

Let me hear Your lovingkindness in the morning; For I trust in You; Teach me the way in which I should walk; For to You I lift up my soul.


Prayer: Lord Jesus I trust in You with not only my salvation but my life.  I lay down my life and give up trying to do my best in the way that I think best.  I want to hear Your lovingkindness every morning.  Teach me how to walk.  I need Your presence and guidance.  Thank you, Jesus.  Amen

Buried Alive…..

Buried alive….

pile of clothes

Buried alive is, buried alive whether it be in dishes, laundry, words or to do lists.  Any of those before mentioned situations leave you feeling exhausted and hopeless. As a mother you could be buried in the middle of all of those scenarios at the same time.

Frenzied with the back to school rush, I sat perched in the middle of a mountainous mass of clothing desperately throwing items into three stacks in the hopes of reaching a ‘manageable’ amount before me.  One load goes off to Goodwill.  A second to the outfits for now pile and a third to the clothes they will grow into later heap. 

Advice given should also be quickly sorted, so that we do not become entrapped under a pile that steals our very breathe. We are bombarded daily, moment-to-moment with what we should, could, maybe and might do.  Sort these messages according to God’s wisdom.

Some of the things, let’s go with most things the world says should go into the rejection pile.  The second batch of advice we should heed immediately for our own safety.  The third message may be stored for later because it’s depth of meaning needs further exploration or it has relevance for future use.

Few things spoken or written have had any impact on me that were not directly taken from God’s Word or were steeped in God’s wisdom.

We cannot have an impact on others without knowledge and use of the Word of God.  Our message will go into the rejection pile- were it rightfully belongs.

James 3:17 But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere.

Prayer:  Lord steep me in Your Word, light me on fire with it’s wisdom and power.  Let my words be aligned with and point toward Your Word and will.  Grant me wisdom to reject messages that lead my thoughts and deeds away from You.




Wonderfully intelligent, and brilliantly crafty, at discovering new adventures- my new 2 year old.  If you are a parent you can easily read between the lines on this and you would be correct.  She is a whirlwind of activity.  An exhaustive fire ball of plans that are always one step ahead of my safety measures.  She wants, what she wants, when she wants it, at all times.  Pity the person that gets in the way of her strong will.  She will get louder and more destructive as she endures seconds of waiting for her needs to be met.

Somewhere in that last paragraph I stopped talking about my daughter and started talking about myself.  Ok, in all honestly that was at about sentence three.  I recently did not get what I wanted, when I wanted it.

If we are honest as parents sometimes we just hand our child those cookies in order to get the screaming to stop.  Not our greatest parental moments but sometimes we are just to tired or busy to do what is best for our children.

Thank God, our heavenly Father does not have our same weaknesses.  He always does what is best for us even when we throw our tantrums and refuse to wait or even worse refuse to endure what is best for us with- gasp- joy in our hearts.

I know I will reach a time when  I am able to look back at this hiccup in my plans and see the sovereign hand of God.  He knows what is best for my family even when I don’t have the strength, patience or maturity to see that. It just isn’t right now.  Right now,  I am rolling around on the floor, screeching with the best of them.  Someday I will see how this made me a better mother, daughter or wife.  It just isn’t right now, and that’s okay.

Prayer:  Lord Jesus, help me to see Your sovereign hand in this. Your obedient child awaits Your guidance.  I trust in Your strength and gracious heart  in this, even while I am screaming.  Please help me to live in Your joy each and every day.  Let Your love overwhelm me and leave me at rest in Your peace that passes human understanding. Help me, your obedient, albeit cranky daughter.  Love, Heather

Comment: How has God surprised you?  How has God left you wondering if He knows your heart?


Why do we make the simple difficult? –  Rebellion or Obedience

Every step my husband and I take leads us to the cross for guidance.  Are we taking this job, or waiting, moving or staying? How are we raising are children?  All acts of submission are easy, until they are not.  What happens when the next step needs to be made, and the answer you have from God doesn’t make sense?  We make decisions more difficult than they are.  Fretting over the what-if’s.  The only what if that really matters is, What if we don’t obey? What are the consequences?  If we choose our own “logical” option we also choose the ugly, death-infused reality of rebellion.


Rebellion or Obedience

            When we think of rebellion we think of a rebel.  When we hear the word rebel our mind conjures up images of shady looking fellows one step away from landing in jail.  We don’t acknowledge God and look at the rebellion in our own hearts.  No one would willingly throw themselves or their beloved family members into the gates of hell, to be tormented by the natural consequences of our sin.  Yet when we choose to be “in charge” that is what we do.

pic of family praying

Ephesians 5:22, Wives, submit yourselves to your own husbands as you do the Lord.  This is a rather simple command, until it isn’t.  My husband struggles with worries of failures hindering his obedient walk.  Tugging him toward self-reliance instead of obedience.  I struggle with submission to my husband, not on a base-level anymore as I did in my younger years but during times when I question if he has pressed in deep enough to Christ to receive an answer even if it does not align with his own self-will. I question John, because I know how hard it is to press into the Lord and receive what you don’t want to hear, but need to.  I fail in my willingness to submit, but I must trust because John has been endowed by God with the higher calling of being the spiritual leader of our home.  If God commands John to be the spiritual leader then he will grant John what he needs to lead in each and every situation, if he asks. All we need to do is ask for what we need, and then submit to the work that is inherent in the receiving. “Keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for.  Keep on seeking, and you will find.  Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you.”  Matthew 7:7 NLT

These are the questions or factors I have found to intensify the angst in actively choosing obedience in my own walk-

  • Do I have to wait for the solution?
  • Does God’s answer line up with my plans for my life?
  • Does God’s answer make loved one’s question our sanity?
  • When God doesn’t seem to be listening to my heart.
  • When I have to follow my husband into a decision I know is wrong for the family.
  • When the answers of God seems contradictory to the promises God gave us.


What are some factors or questions that you have let hinder your walking in obedience? Comment below,  I would love to pray with you.