I am first a Christian, second a wife, a mother to four and a writer. I am a pediatric occupational therapist with seventeen years of experience. I am also an ordained minister. I began this blog to reach other exhausted mothers who are trying to balance their lives. Being a mother has many beautiful reward and many heart wrenching moments. I have found myself frequently wishing that I could carry my children’s crosses through this world instead of watching them struggle under the weight of them. Luke 9:23 states, then he said to them all: “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross daily and follow me. Jesus stated this plainly each individual person must pick up “their cross” not “a cross” and they must do so daily. As their mother I must walk the line between uplifting my children through life and allowing them to rise to the occasion independently. Knowing when to do which one is excruciatingly painful at times.
My family and I are going through a large number of changes right now some of them joyful and some of them we must simply endure. My husband’s business went under in April of 2013. We subsequently relocated to Somonauk, Illinois and moved our children to another new school. As a follower of Christ I find it extremely important, rewarding and at times exquisitely painful, but necessary to be obedient to the Creator of the Universe.
It was in the midst of all these changes that I began to ask the Lord what his plan was for me. My answer came, in the middle of the week when I went to a regularly scheduled OB appointment. The “substitute” OB tore down my motherhood. I was in shock that another health care professional would act in such a way. Still reeling the following day we received the news that the job I was counting on to start in August no longer existed. All of this when I was more than 8 1/2 months pregnant. In a very short period of time my motherhood and my identity as an occupational therapist were challenged. Luckily when challenged, as a daughter of God I have the option of asking God, “What should I be learning here? Where do you want me to receive my identity from?” I also asked him why was it that the OB had such ready access to my heart with her vile behavior. The Lord revealed to me that the reason the OB’s behavior affected me so intensely was that as a healthcare professional that dealt mostly with women and children I had dedicated my life and found the most fulfillment in lifting up other mothers. By being torn down myself, I was confronted with how important it was to come alongside other mothers and lift them up. God told me he wanted me to use my gifting of compassion, empathy and knowledge to strengthen other mother’s hearts. Motherhood is a precious gift that He gives. God believes that mothers deserve protection and that all mothers need to be strengthened. It is my continued prayer that God puts me into position to strengthen mother’s hearts. God’s callings always seem to require patience, endurance and a peaceful heart. I believe this next walk in obedience will be no different