Does God heal?

         I proclaimed and declared that when my son was healed that the money that would have gone to the surgery which was $2,500 would go to a safe house my friend started for women rescued from sex- trafficking.

Great idea right?
Did God deliver a miraculous healing?-NO

Why?

Did my thought patterns not align with the Word of God?
Did He not want my son healed?
Did He think money spent on surgery was better than money spent on redeeming brutalized women?

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        Those questions scream absurdly, staring at me from this white page! – Yet, when they bounce around in my own head, the pain twists and turns these questions into plausible statements.

I struggle to rid my thoughts of the lies of the enemy.

 

Why does my child have to go through pain?

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             There is only one solution to my pain and confusion and it is exquisitely painful and exquisitely simple. Take it to the cross and press into Christ.

             What does that mean? I don’t go perfect and I don’t go with any answers, I just acknowledge He is God and I am not. The Cross has covered my pain in His blood. I know someday the pain will lesson and maybe I will see clearer. For now it is more than enough to lay myself before Him because He is more than enough.

              I confessed I let my pain in seeing my child suffer and those feelings of loss of control shift my reliance mechanism.

             I shifted from total reliance on Christ the Creator of the Universe who loves my son more than I do, to reliance on man. Kind of a silly trade off to say the least.

REDEMPTION

Romans 8:1-2, Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus,

          I confessed my sins of making the medical experts and man my idol instead of going to Christ first. This freed me to see the Truth.

Romans goes on to say, 2-” because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit who gives life has set you free from the law of sin and death. (NIV)

Christ’s death allows me to find healing from pain. I don’t need to live in condemnation of the enemy I can stand up and keep walking.

I still have questions:

Does God heal? – Yes

Does God heal through the medical field? – Yes

We must always submit to Christ first and see what His plan is and not our own. What does He want done.

Romans 8:28 (NIV)
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

My messing up, by not acknowledging Him right away in this pain process did not, could not and will not deter God’s purposes for the life of my son.

                I know that, the $2,500 will be redeemed for the safe house. I see His work in it now (already)while I gather supplies to take up on Saturday. There is no doubt in my mind by the end of His outpouring of love to these women He will have moved far more than $2,500 for them. His love is so vast it humbles me as I see but a glimpse of it.

His purposes will always find a way even through our broken submission.

Prayer: I acknowledge You,  I don’t know everything but I do know You love me. Cover me in the blood of the Lamb as my mother heart recovers from what feels like a defeat. Show me Your victory Christ.  You have overcome and I am an overcomer through You. Continue to reveal Your great mysteries to Your servants.  I praise You through the pain.  Great is the glory of the Lord and forever He does reign.  Thank You, Jesus.  Amen

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The Big “R” word

        Snickers, turned faces, turned away hearts real or imagined torment us.  All the earth faces rejection the enemy seeks to propagate it, fortify it and invites us to slay others with rejection.

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My own pain seems distant. A disconnect far from me but my children’s pain is burning me up, the ache is horrific. I recognize that only God can heal this and rely on His understanding of my children’s earthly rejection.  (Middle school is horrible)

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Spirit of rejection be gone in Jesus name.

Brilliant light emerges and in enters waves of love, joy and peace.  The hushed sounds of our feet vibrating with praise resonate on the cobblestone bricks of gold, we pause to receive the crowns we earned from obedience to Christ by no works of our own.  Great joy erupts as we place our crowns before Christ and every fiber of our being joins in unity of praise to the Maker of the Universe.  Deep unity a living thing moves through us and out toward others.  Feelings of righteousness and belonging smooth out every rough spot within us.

There is no disunity, it is a word unrecognizable in heaven.  There can be no rejection when the Bride of Christ is complete.

Let us live and breathe and make our life in the Truth the eternal truth of Christ’s total acceptance. We were created before time for many purposes that delight God’s heart as He sees them emerge from within us.  Do not let the enemy squelch the joy of your salvation.

Bride of Christ rise up against rejection.

Prayer: We proclaim and declare that rejection; self-rejection, perceived- rejection, and fear of rejection be gone in Jesus name. You no longer have a hold on us. We do not accept the lies of the enemy that we are inferior, a mistake or anything less than the delight of Christ. We will not carry out Satan’s plans to hurt others.  We seek unity in Christ and ask for a great humbling.  Set us free! Search our hearts and reveal our pain so that we might reject the lies of the enemy.  Great is the glory of the Lord and forever He does reign.  There is a void in our beings where rejection once lived and we ask that You bless us with the Spirit of Truth, confidence, love, joy and a deep penetration of acceptance within us. Fill that space with the mind of Christ. Replaces lies with Truth we seek Your face and Your will in all things.  We repent of any actions, thoughts or feelings that produced pain in another person.  Help us Lord Jesus, to know our identity in Christ.  As deep calls to deep, draw us in.  Thank You, Jesus.  Amen.

Purity re-claimed!!!

Purity re-claimed

The enemy is evil to the core.  He searches out and finds the most innocent and vulnerable to ravage their hearts.

According to the Center for Disease Control, 2012 statistics, 1 in 4 girls and 1 in 6 boys are sexually assaulted before the age of 18 in the United States.  These facts may make us feel hopeless but remember we serve an awesome God.  He is faithful to heal us.

John 16:33 (AMP)

 I have told you these things, so that in Me you may have [perfect] peace. In the world you have tribulation and distress and suffering, but be courageous [be confident, be undaunted, be filled with joy]; I have overcome the world.” [My conquest is accomplished, My victory abiding.]

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Hope is renewed in Christ you can experience your frozen waterfalls of peace, safety and healing begin to flow.

 

Molestation at an early age when children are most vulnerable to the ravages of guilt, shame, and the false responsibility of keeping the family together, the devil pounces.   Children believe as their bodies are ravaged their secret place reserved only for communion with their heavenly Father is also defiled.  Their physical wounds are horrific but worse still are the wounds dealt to their spiritual being leaving them alone and defenseless.  These spiritual wounds may then begin to manifest physical symptoms that are often debilitating.

The enemy tricks the child or adult into laying down their most precious possession their identity and safety in the shelter of Christ. Nothing done in the physical by a father-figure or mother-figure can defile the Father-God relationship.

Nothing done to our physical bodies can defile the purity of our secret/ hidden place in God.  Do not allow the lies from the pit of hell to sway your mind of this truth.

             Women and men who have been violated rise up and reclaim the purity of your secret/ hidden place it was never defiled.

Romans 8:35-39 Who shall ever separate us from the love of [a]Christ? Will tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or danger, or sword? Just as it is written and forever remains written, “For Your sake we are put to death all day long; We are regarded as sheep for the slaughter. “Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors and gain an overwhelming victory through Him who loved us [so much that He died for us].  For I am convinced [and continue to be convinced—beyond any doubt] that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present and threatening, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from the [unlimited] love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. (AMP)

I wish that the body of Christ and humanity as a whole did not suffer from the savage assault of sexual and spiritual abuse. As the body of Christ we must rise up to fight back the darkness and release healing to the suffering.

Prayer:  Faithful and righteous King, Christ Jesus heal all those attacked by this horrific crime. Bring them to a place of Truth.  Let them know their true identity and that their secret place is not defiled.  They have the right and privilege of coming into the throne room of God without guilt or shame.  Remind them they are sons and daughters of the King Most High. You adore them and are proud of them.  We cast out shame, guilt, and false-responsibility in Jesus name.  Encase them in Your peace that passes human understanding and provide them deep safety as they hide in the shelter of Your love.  Thank You,  Jesus.  Amen.

Psalm 91:1 (AMP)

Security of the One Who Trusts in the Lord.

He who [a]dwells in the shelter of the Most High Will remain secure and rest in the shadow of the Almighty [whose power no enemy can withstand].

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This morning before I wrote this, I awoke to God saying, “Hate evil, the enemy of man not the sinner.”  It may seem beyond reason to pray for the perpetrator of such crimes but it honors the Lord when we bring all people into the throne room for His will to reign.

Prayer for perpetrators:  Lord Jesus,  You love all Your children.  Have Your way with the broken perpetrators of assault.  Heal Your child.  Bring them to repentance for their sin.  Take them to a place of healing.  You are a God of miracles- work Your miracles in their lives. Thank You, Jesus.

 

Psalms 61:3-5 AMP

For You have been a shelter and a refuge for me,

A strong tower against the enemy.

Let me dwell in Your tent forever;

Let me take refuge in the shelter of Your wings. Selah.

Is the Word of God- living?

Is the Word of God- living? If your answer is yes- what does that mean?

The Lord revealed to me this morning what it is to agree with Him that the Word of God is living and active and cannot return to Him void or useless.

A friend called for intercession regarding a speaking engagement at an upcoming conference.  The Lord opened my mouth and had me  pray that the Word of God given to her would be spoken into the people with such fire and life that the presence of the Word now living within them would create deliverance not only in that room but in the market place, home and every subsequent location those listeners entered.

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When we agree with scripture, it penetrates into the deepest parts of us, ignites with submission to the presence of God and delivers His people without any action on our part other than entering the room. This truth has left me in awe and praise all day long.

 

Hebrews 4:12 (AMP)

12 For the word of God is living and active and full of power [making it operative, energizing, and effective]. It is sharper than any two-edged [a]sword, penetrating as far as the division of the [b]soul and spirit [the completeness of a person], and of both joints and marrow [the deepest parts of our nature], exposing and judging the very thoughts and intentions of the heart.

 

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Isaiah   5:11 (AMP)

So will My word be which goes out of My mouth;

It will not return to Me void (useless, without result),

Without accomplishing what I desire,

And without succeeding in the matter for which I sent it.

 

Pray:  Teach me to pray.  I confess that my prayers are little and without proper awe of the Lord. Deliver me from this ignorance.  Teach me, my heart is willing and my entire being desires to hide the Word of God within me, to meditate on Your Word and be ignited by its living presence.  Reveal to me the depth of Your scripture as deep calls to deep I ask that You grant Your daughter the eyes, ears, heart, and mind to see, feel, and know the fullness of scripture.  Reveal so that I might operate as a useful and willing tool to enter where I am sent, carrying Your healing truth and salvation within me.  Thank You,  Amen.

Overwhelmed by a life!

 

I have the overwhelming privilege of gathering photos for my father in laws service. Jim Sr. is in the process of dying and very much like a birth; this is a time of reflection and anticipation.  I anxiously await his heaven birthday where he will no longer be in pain. My husband is working on the eulogy and is prayerfully considering what to say.

 

In his life, he has many roles:

A father

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A grandpa

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A lover of animals

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Jim Sr. was a firefighter, bus driver- mechanic and a husband to name a few of his roles.  He is so many things but non greater than a child of God. His choice to follow Jesus has made all the difference in his life and the lives of those who love him.  We are anticipating an eternal life instead of dreading the loss of an earthly one.  Thank You, Jesus for your mercy on him and on those who love him.

 

Please join me in praying. 

       Lord Jesus, we plead the Blood over Jim Sr. that he be released from his earthly body and its death and instead be received into the Kingdom of God with joy.  Let Your peace reign as He transitions to life.  Cancer you cannot keep him bound to his body and pain any longer, be gone in Jesus name.  Christ receives him.  Thank You, Jesus.  By the gift of Your precious blood, let his family and friends and all those he touched rest in Your peace.  Amen.