Today I opened up the refrigerator and found this. My mind flashed into remembrance the feeling of being totally empty. I must have had a strange look on my face, because my children all came over, to look and see, why the refrigerator was making me smile. (especially this refrigerator)
My husband and I went through a period of intensely painful, betrayal and upheaval that resulted in the complete emptying of ourselves and total reliance on God. There’s no greater catalyst forward than full surrender. Few would willing choose this time of upheaval, including myself. Yet here we are again my husband and I at the edge of everything we are, finding out we are not enough. Nor can we ever be.
All eyes are on you during that naked and empty period of exposure. What we choose to fill ourselves with is witnessed. Good or bad. Everyone is waiting to see. Some are cheering you on, and some are waiting to witness a good fall. Either way, you will be responsible for what you choose, no one else.
During the last period of upheaval and emptying we learned how to strengthen and unify our marriage. How to surrender daily, to determine every course of action no matter how small. And finally that life has nothing to do with you and everything to do with Him. That no matter what circumstances we are in, we are still accountable to our Lord in every moment and in every step.
Pray: Thank you Jesus, for teaching me what I so desperately need to learn. I am your open, empty book, create within me Your redemption story. I surrender my life to Your will and creative genius. I know that You can, and will do a better job with my life than I can. Thank you for caring enough to mold me. I love you. Amen.
I wonder what I will be taught during this next phase of threshing. I pray that the chaff will be blown away, soon, and His masterpiece revealed. I will write about what My Lord reveals, as He unfolds it.
Sometimes seeing an empty vessel is a good thing. If you have been there and know this bitter, sweetness, feel free to comment me. I love to hear what God is transforming in other people’s lives.