What’s in your back pack? Did you forget something?

What’s in your backpack? 

Do you have a strong suspicion that  its junk you don’t need and have been carrying around forever for absolutely no good reason?  If so you and I may have the same backpack or a similar one.  

Why do we always tell our children, “That’s okay you tried your best.” “It’s the process that counts.”  “As long as you keep trying and do your best, you are a winner.”  We are trying to teach them not to be hard on themselves and to get back up and keep trying.  In short we are trying to teach perseverance through pain.  Perseverance no doubt is a trait needed in this world.

But you can’t teach it through talking it is only taught through doing.

Confessions of a mother with a heavy back pack:

As I am desperately trying to teach perseverance instead I am teaching self deprecation.  I yell at myself when I forget the smallest things, lose stuff or just plain blow it.  I begin to tell myself, ” Look you did it again.  So and so must be thinking ….. about me”  What a horrific time waster and energy sucker.  As mothers that’s the last thing we need is someone tearing us down stealing our feeble energy supply and wasting our time.  And yet that is what we do to ourselves.  It’s time we take off our backpacks, see whats packed in there and remove the junk.  God had and has no intention of weighing us down He came to lift us up.   

John 16:33 New International Version (NIV) “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”

Pray: Dear Lord you have clearly stated that life will not be easy multiple times in the bible. I confess now that I myself have made it more difficult with the junk I refuse to lay down.  Lord Jesus I willingly lay down the heavy junk that I have been carrying.  I lay it down so that I may persevere under Your will.  Help me to meditate on, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable, excellent or praiseworthy.  Lord God help me to think about such things, as I load them daily into my now empty backpack.  Let there be an infilling of You as I release my heavy burdens.  Lord God I need Your presence. Thank you, Amen.

It is my prayer for you and me that every time we ask our children, “What’s in your backpack? Did you forget…..?”  That we ask ourselves whats in our backpacks? heavy or light, good or evil, helpful or destructive? God is on your side.  Let’s do some fall cleaning!

If you really believe?! Jesus

photo What does it look like if you really believe?  Would you leave anyone behind, to experience horrendous pain for eternity?  Would you leave behind even an enemy? To be a Christian, by definition we must believe,  John 3:16.  For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.  If we deny this then we are not a Christian, we are something else.  If we believe this then we acknowledge Christ as Lord and accept eternal life.  We must also acknowledge then, that the unbeliever will experience eternal torture/ hell. I challenge myself and the church to began to really look like we believe.  We need to grab a hold of the people that we love, that do not believe and try with all our hearts to convert them.  In saying this we must also acknowledge that not everyone is won over to Christ with the same techniques.  Pray for guidance and wisdom on how to save the people you love. The time is now.  As in Lot’s day when the Angel of the Lord had to grab a hold of them and drag them to safety, we too must have that level of urgency.  We must be willing to experience rejection and even loss of relationship in order to save.  True love isn’t easy and is definitely not painless. Pray:  Lord help me to love the way that You love, not with self interest and preservation in mind, but with abandonment and recklessness of heart.  Jesus I whole heartedly believe that You are Christ and I fully surrender myself to you.  I know that Your word is true and that your love is all encompassing.  I need You Lord to grant me the wisdom to know what to say and what not to say to save ______________. ( insert specific name)  I know, as I have experienced it, in my own life that when I surrender to You that sometimes I require trials to experience Your transforming love.  Grant me strength, that I may endure watching_________experience trials so that You can reach and transform them.  Grant me Your patience to daily ask for ______ salvation and grant me faith to wait on Your will.  I ask that You give _____________divine connections, let someone enter their life that can reach them in a way that I can not.   I love you God, let your will be done. Amen. Today I vow to do better. Jesus I confess I have been self centered and self absorbed.  I have not loved enough to risk rejection and ridicule.  Lord Jesus please forgive Heather Roberts for the sins of doubt and pride.  I thank you for it, Amen.

1 John 5:13-15

1 John 5:13-15 (NIV)

13 I write these things to you who believe in the name of the Son of God so that you may know that you have eternal life. 14 This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. 15 And if we know that he hears us—whatever we ask—we know that we have what we asked of him.

We as the chosen people of God, can ask God for anything under His will. How do we know if we are within His will? The answer is simple, it is clearly spelled out in the Word of God.

Everything that the Lord does or moves, requires a specific measure of gentleness and a specific measure of pressure/force. God chooses the specific measure of gentleness and pressure required. When we surrender ourselves entirely to God so that He can perform a miracle in our lives, we must also submit to the level of gentleness and pressure required.

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Everyone likes to possess a diamond. Their beauty, inner light and color is breathtaking. A diamonds strength is almost without match. However no one, would want to submit to the amount of pressure/force that is required to create a diamond. Carbon has no beauty until it is subjected to extremely high temperatures and pressure.  Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, James 1:2(NIV).

Pray: Lord Jesus I know that you are at work within me. It is my desire to fully submit to You so that You can complete your work. Give me strength and wisdom to be the servant that You require. I wish to be a living sacrifice to You for your good pleasure. Give me rest and strength in this time of trial and transformation. I ask you to exchange my ashes in for beauty. Lord God you are my savior and my provider. I don’t know have the wisdom necessary to fulfill Your will alone. Help me God. I love you, Amen.

Why did I wait for so long, without asking?

I’ve been tortured with anxiety, brought on by my four month old. She is refusing a bottle, I’ve been trying for about two months now, with little progress. Granted she used to vomit when either a nipple or pacifier was introduced and she no longer does that, so some progress. Our greatest success has been 1/2 an ounce that may or may not have been swallowed. With my return to work date quickly approaching my anxiety has been on a steady rise. Instead of simply asking my future daycare provider what her experience level was, with children with eating issues, I just continued my out of control spiraling anxiety. Once I finally asked my daycare provider, her answers completely removed my worries. She had, had a child who had to be syringe and cup fed, she could certainly handle my stubborn daughter. Why had I waited for so long, without asking?

We do the same thing when we let out mind go wild with possible scenarios instead of asking for God’s input. We can be assured that the maker of the universe has the expertise to handle our problems. Stop holding on to your torturous scenarios and start holding onto God. Ask Jesus for His wisdom and blessings.

Pray: Lord Jesus my heart is troubled. I don’t know what my next step should be. My head spins with fear. Lord God direct my feet onto Your path, help me to know Your will. Give me Your peace that passes human understanding as I face life. I can confidently know that what I ask of God according to His will, He will hear and I will have what I ask of Him. Lord God I don’t know what I need, so I ask that You grant me with Your wisdom what I need. Your steadfast love gives me all the assurance I require, to be able to trust in Your decisions for my life. Thank you God for loving me, right where I’m at. Thank you God for continuing to do a good work within me. Love, your daughter.

1 John 5:13-15 (NIV)
I write these things to you who believe in the name of the Son of God so that you may know that you have eternal life. This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us-whatever we ask- we know that we have what we asked of him.